Words Unsaid

So many things I wanted said, yet unsaid.

The weight of things that remained unspoken, built up so much it crushed us every day. So scared of breaking it, but she won't let it bend. And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send. Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem. She'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed. She pushes me, I don't have the strength to resist or control her. Take me down, take me down. I wonder if it even makes a difference, it even makes a difference to try and she told me how she’s feeling. She told me actions speaks louder, but there's something about her words that hurt.

She hurt me, but do I deserve this? She makes me think of someone wonderful but I can't place her. She makes me so nervous, calm me down, calm me down. I need her to trust me, go easy, don't rush me. Help me out, why doesn’t she help me out? I'm never gonna leave this bed. The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember; the way it feels to be alive the day that I first met her. Something's gotta change, things cannot stay the same.

Never asked her to change but sadly she doesn't feel the same about me. She say "Go, it isn't working" and I say "No, it isn't perfect”. So I stay instead. Not that I didn't care; it's that I didn't know. It’s not what I didn't feel; it's what I didn't show. I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her. I wonder does her man still shudder when she touches his hand like this man. I am in misery; there ain't nobody who can comfort me.

Why won't she answer me? The silence is slowly killing me. Why does this happened to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard? Hard to believe it. Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad. This love has taken its toll on me. She said goodbye too many times before and my heart is breaking in front of me. Please don't try so hard to say goodbye, I'm out of goodbyes; because I know that goodbye means nothing at all. Something's gotta change, it must be rearranged.

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at her door. I've had her so many times but somehow I want more. Just give me one more chance to make it right, of all things I felt but never really shown. I don't mind spending every day out on her corner in the pouring rain. Look for the girl with the broken smile ask her if she wants to stay awhile and she will be loved. My heart is full and my door's always open, she can come anytime she wants. 

So let me be and she will be loved.

Lyrics Mashed up and Modified by,

Extracted From "This Love", "She Will Be Loved", "I  Won't Go Home Without You", "Goodnight Goodnight",  "Misery", "Never Gonna Leave This Bed" and "Out of Goodbyes", All original by Maroon 5.

I'm just too tired

There ain't gonna be anything fancy for this post, no song, no rhymes, no poem, no lyrics, i'm just too tired for everything and anything...

I'm just too tired to think,
too tired to tell,
too tired to keep up,
too tired to fall,
too tired to stand up,
too tired to try,
too tired to be strong,
too tired to hope,
too tired to wish,
too tired to see what's not,
too tired to see what's possible,
too tired to brood over the same words,
too tired to lie,
too tired to smile,
too tired to laugh at myself,
too tired to fake,
too tired to love,
too tired to hate,
too tired to be depressed,
too tired to worry,
too tired to give up,
too tired to be broken,
too tired to listen,
too tired to talk,
too tired to bear the silence,
too tired to get all happy,
too tired to get all sad,
too tired for the world,
too tired for the changes,
too tired for the ups and down,
too tired for the hot and cold,
too tired for my inner chaos,
too tired for anymore confusions,
too tired for the uncertainties,
too tired for truth,
too tired for the dramas,
too tired for fate,
too tired for the past,
too tired for questions,
too tired for answers,
too tired for myself...

If only things never started,
if only I went away to other places,
if only I never saw,
if only I never tried,
if only I'm not a fool,
if only I can be little more understanding,
if only I can make life simpler...

I wonder life would be better for the present haha sigh*~~