Saturday, October 22, 2011

Seasons Change

I see seasons changed by the winds blow,
Your heart have shaken in the rhythms flow.
The sweetest scents of  the spring flowers,
The heat of the summer passion.
Now the falling leaves in autumn wind,
Waiting to be covered in white winter snow.

Never Gonna Leave This Bed


"Never Gonna Leave This Bed"






You push me, I don't have the strength to
Resist or control you
Take me down, take me down

You hurt me
But do I deserve this?
You make me so nervous
Calm me down, calm me down

Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed, oh

So come here
And never leave this place
Perfection of your face
Slows me down, slows me down

So fall down
I need you to trust me
Go easy, don't rush me
Help me out, why don't you help me out?

Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed, oh

So you say "Go, it isn't working"
And I say "No, it isn't perfect"
So I stay instead
I'm never gonna leave this bed

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
I'd give it all away just to get you back
And fake it, fake it all
Take what I can get
Knockin' so loud
Can you hear me yet
Try to stay awake but you can't forget

Wake you up
In the middle of the night to say
I will never walk away again
I'm never gonna leave this bed, oh

You say "Go, it isn't working"
And I say "No, it isn't perfect"
So I stay instead
I'm never gonna leave this bed, ooh

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have

Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have
Take it, take it all
Take all that I have 

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Blank??

最近心情有点不爽。。。
宝贝她很不想和我说话。。。
我又惹到她生气了吗?还是她厌倦了我?
每当我要跟她说话的时候都时常被不管。。。
或者她都用很阴沉的话语来回我。。。
但同一时间内却看到她和别人讲的有说有笑的,非常开朗。。。


我觉得好尴尬。。。
我有点心酸。。。
我妒忌了。。。
我喜欢这种感觉吗?
不,我一点都不喜欢去妒忌别人, 这种感觉让我觉得很没用。


我不是不喜欢她跟别人有说有笑的,
我只不过希望她也能那样来对待我罢了。。。
为什么我和别人得到的对待会相差那么远呢?
这种分别让我觉得很不被需要,觉得我只不过是在烦着她。。。


我们曾经也有过那些快乐的时光,
当对方的出现会让彼此开朗,
非常的温暖和幸福。。。


那段时光去了哪儿?
难到她忘了吗?




Saturday, October 8, 2011

New Semester = Stress?

Okay, let's do an update and summary about my current life haha...

The 3rd semester started, and this is the 4th week(if i'm not mistaken) of the sem...
All the goods in holiday will have to come to a stop,
no more hanging out everynite,
no more movies every week,
no more chit-chat till late night,
no more staying up whole night,
and the list goes on...

life is getting more and more busy with all the works and projects piling up like mountain...
Stress is building up when faced with subjects that i don't have a damn idea what it's actually about and can't even relate it to my course.... and working with people who still need more knowledge on certain something can be seriously stressful.

Everybody is just too busy with their own works, as for me and her, we just don't have much time for each other like we used to have during the holiday... And she had not been giving me much of her attention lately, too busy with her works i guess, situation can be a little awkward sometimes. But honestly, i just miss those time i spent with her, those time are gold... hope the two us can have more time together, i want to make every moment with her worth... i have given a lot to bring us closer together. i hope that life just won't take her away again, i don't want her to drift away again, not this time. I still have a goal to achieve, a dream to catch, a future i hope to live.

Desperate for her attention but i just couldn't bring myself to ask more of her time. She has her own life to go through, she can't possibly do everything in my favor, and i want her to have her own space, to focus in what she's doing... if i cannot help her, that's the least i can do for her...tension is building up though huhuhu... but well, i'd rather wait patiently and eat up the pain than doing anything disrespect to her. For now, I'll just be praying to God in hope He'll do what's best for us :)

Need more motivation to focus in my study, need to pull up my pointer, for a better future maybe?

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Time ~ Forever

The beginning that I could not remember,
The stop that I know is never.
How I wish the time can stop here,
Let this moment with you last till forever.
By my love I promise to be better,
So that by your side I'll be the best ever.

Written by,

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Words Unsaid



So many things I wanted said, yet unsaid.

The weight of things that remained unspoken, built up so much it crushed us every day. So scared of breaking it, but she won't let it bend. And I wrote two hundred letters I will never send. Sometimes these cuts are so much deeper than they seem. She'd rather cover up, I'd rather let them bleed. She pushes me, I don't have the strength to resist or control her. Take me down, take me down. I wonder if it even makes a difference, it even makes a difference to try and she told me how she’s feeling. She told me actions speaks louder, but there's something about her words that hurt.

She hurt me, but do I deserve this? She makes me think of someone wonderful but I can't place her. She makes me so nervous, calm me down, calm me down. I need her to trust me, go easy, don't rush me. Help me out, why doesn’t she help me out? I'm never gonna leave this bed. The room was silent as we all tried so hard to remember; the way it feels to be alive the day that I first met her. Something's gotta change, things cannot stay the same.

Never asked her to change but sadly she doesn't feel the same about me. She say "Go, it isn't working" and I say "No, it isn't perfect”. So I stay instead. Not that I didn't care; it's that I didn't know. It’s not what I didn't feel; it's what I didn't show. I wake up every morning wishing one more time to face her. I wonder does her man still shudder when she touches his hand like this man. I am in misery; there ain't nobody who can comfort me.

Why won't she answer me? The silence is slowly killing me. Why does this happened to me? Why does every moment have to be so hard? Hard to believe it. Girl you really got me bad, you really got me bad. This love has taken its toll on me. She said goodbye too many times before and my heart is breaking in front of me. Please don't try so hard to say goodbye, I'm out of goodbyes; because I know that goodbye means nothing at all. Something's gotta change, it must be rearranged.

I drove for miles and miles and wound up at her door. I've had her so many times but somehow I want more. Just give me one more chance to make it right, of all things I felt but never really shown. I don't mind spending every day out on her corner in the pouring rainLook for the girl with the broken smile ask her if she wants to stay awhile and she will be loved. My heart is full and my door's always open, she can come anytime she wants. 

So let me be and she will be loved.


Lyrics Mashed up and Modified by,
Extracted From "This Love", "She Will Be Loved", "I  Won't Go Home Without You", "Goodnight Goodnight",  "Misery", "Never Gonna Leave This Bed" and "Out of Goodbyes", All original by Maroon 5.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

I'm just too tired

There ain't gonna be anything fancy for this post, no song, no rhymes, no poem, no lyrics, i'm just too tired for everything and anything...

I'm just too tired to think,
too tired to tell,
too tired to keep up,
too tired to fall,
too tired to stand up,
too tired to try,
too tired to be strong,
too tired to hope,
too tired to wish,
too tired to see what's not,
too tired to see what's possible,
too tired to brood over the same words,
too tired to lie,
too tired to smile,
too tired to laugh at myself,
too tired to fake,
too tired to love,
too tired to hate,
too tired to be depressed,
too tired to worry,
too tired to give up,
too tired to be broken,
too tired to listen,
too tired to talk,
too tired to bear the silence,
too tired to get all happy,
too tired to get all sad,
too tired for the world,
too tired for the changes,
too tired for the ups and down,
too tired for the hot and cold,
too tired for my inner chaos,
too tired for anymore confusions,
too tired for the uncertainties,
too tired for truth,
too tired for the dramas,
too tired for fate,
too tired for the past,
too tired for questions,
too tired for answers,
too tired for myself...

If only things never started,
if only I went away to other places,
if only I never saw,
if only I never tried,
if only I'm not a fool,
if only I can be little more understanding,
if only I can make life simpler...

I wonder life would be better for the present haha sigh*~~